Tuesday, May 27, 2014


A memory I have of fear is when I was at my brothers house. Joel (my brother) and his roommate invited weird people over that I had never met. They were quite nice when I first met them. But then  things got a little out of hand and my brothers roommate pulled out a knife and was going to stab the guy they invited over. That made me experience fear because I thought I was about to watch someone die in front of me.
 From this experience I can tell you that fear paralyzes you. It's makes your body freeze so you just get stuck in the situation. The face of fear on a person is almost indiscribable. The face of fear, before your brain allows you to analyze the situation is wide eyes and open mouthed. Extreme fear can give you PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). Where is can effect you to the point where you can't function normally in society. Fear can effect your senses by making everything so much more extreme. You're mind will trick you into thinking you see something or hear something that you should be afraid of to keep you on your toes. The only thing someone can do to mater fear is to be able to deal with or cope with the situation in which fear presents itself.

Friday, May 2, 2014


What is success? Success is when you achieve something that you have been working towards.

How do you judge if people are successful or not? When people are successful they are happy. Therefore happy people are successful.

Can success be interpreted differently by people? Yes.  If someone has different goals in life, than obviously their definition of success would differ form mine.

Monday, March 31, 2014

The extent of life is unnecessary

I believe life should be short. When you are old, you can't do anything except wait to die. Extending life just seems ( besides being pointless) like it would suck. Scientist shouldn't try to extend life. People are destined to die! It's a natural thing. I would like to die whenever I would be ready. If I could see my grandchildren get married, that would be a good time for me to die, so I will know my purpose in life could be fulfilled.

I agree with the author that “adding years to a life doesn’t necessarily make it any fuller" because once you have accomplished what you have needed to do in life, you should be done. People want to live longer because they are afraid of death when it shouldn't be conceived as something scary. I can't confidently say there are any benefits of living longer. Maybe the fountain of youth can cure rapidly aging diseases, of diseases that cause someone to die early in life. So in a nutshell, I don't really see any benefits, so there really is no competition in the sense that the benefits outweigh the negatives.  

Thursday, March 6, 2014

I believe

I believe The unknown is what I am most afraid of, but the unknown is what will give me my best experiences.
I believe that men and woman have stereotypical lives. Growing up, there is so much propaganda that tells men that they can't have feelings; it's okay if they cheat, or are abusive because it's never the man's fault. Women grow up believing they need to get married and have children. I believe women are just getting into the age where it is common to have careers. Women are altering their bodies, not for medical reasons, but so they can be perceived as more attractive. The thing that is all drilled into our heads from school and parents are: go to college, get a job, get married and have a family. Having a secure future is what we believe we have to look forward to when we get out and live on our own. So much is expected of us - and we in a sense- lie to ourselves, believing this is normal.
I believe people rely on technology so often because they want an escape from their boring reality. When you look around, you see melancholy faces. Just looking at myself, I feel almost trapped. I strongly feel as though it damages the human spirit, because we are programmed and expected to fallow certain paths.Our lives are in a monotonous repetition. We are meant to explore, see knew things that no man has seen before. There is a passion in everyone for adventure. But modern society has repressed us with taxes, fashion trends, ties and cigarettes. Because people are stuck in a status quo lifestyle, It's almost scary to even consider a helter- skelter one. But the joy of having an endless changing horizon is indescribable. From my personal life, I have had a relatively boring life. I was engulfed in technology and rarely left my house. But after getting involved in sports, I was able to find myself. I became active and wanted to really live. I want to travel the world after high school. I want to climb mountains, dive deep into the ocean, I want to do dangerous things, but all I want is to experience as much as I can before I become unable to do so. And what drives me nuts is that I could be in a car accident tomorrow and become paralyzed, or die and not be able to see had feel life that's happening around me.  The unknown is what I am most afraid of, but the unknown is what gives people their best experiences.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014


This week, one thing that worked really well was rambling on about my belief. I didn't sound preachy, and I made it interesting enough to make the reader want to keep reading. Throughout the year I have made a lot of progress. My voice have become really strong. My problem this week was trying to relate my personal life to my work. I don't like putting my personal life because I believe I have a relatively boring life. But with my personal touch is asked for, I will try harder.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

My Voice

In any book there is a voice, an original twist form the authors own words. My voice, I believe is very strong. I have strong opinion on practically anything and everything. I don't believe that a voice in your writing is something that develops.  You may be able to teach yourself to use different vocabulary, or write about something new, but your true voice is always going to be there.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Life Encyclopedia

Clover tongue:
I can shape my tongue to form a clover. I think it's interesting because I'm Irish. It is a genetic mutation and it is something I am glad I can do.

Rook piercing:
I wanted my rooks pierced for a while before I actually got them pierced. No one else had them and I believed they were interesting. They were one of my fifth-tenth birthday present. When the piecer shoved the needle through my ear the pain was an acute sharp gab. He had to go through two layers of cartilage. The pain was worth it though.

Shark and jellyfish:
When I was around eight years old, my dad told me the story about the sharks and the jellyfish. He started off by saying they have both been around for thousands of years, but the sharks were the only ones that evolved. Over the years they lost fins to become more arrow dynamic, and jellyfish have just been the same. Then he fallowed that by saying there are two kinds of people in the world, sharks and jellyfish. The jellyfish just go with the flow, fallow the crowd. But sharks are go getters, independent individuals. This story my dad told me helped me figure out who I wanted to be in life, a shark.

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Twitter bio

Born into a big family. High expectations. Confused and emotionally charged. A wanting to wander into adventure. To find the purpose, and to live life. To love, fear and care. To come into danger and survive. A need for creativity that I lack. Being forever eclectic, and to eventually find my quintessence.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

So far


So Far

This semester so far has been difficult for me as a writer. I feel frustrated in general about English class. I am more of a black and white learner. I like to get to the point with my work, and English had so many rules, exceptions, expectations, and vocabulary that I feel as though I am being suffocated. I hate how illiterate and small I feel. I know I am going to need English class, and it is a huge part of my life, but I am much more of a scientific person.
Specifically I struggle with organization. I thought my vocabulary was the issue, but my detail and steps in my writing are severely lacking. It is difficult because I consider myself a control freak, and when I an not able to make myself come up with greater detail, I get frustrated and give up. I feel like I succeed in nothing really. I can't organize my thoughts, I don't use great detail or vocabulary, and my punctuation is terrible.
In my portfolio, the piece called Horror on the Horizon is a pice that I am very proud of. I worked very hard, and I wanted to give the reader something engaging to read, while making them think about the world. At the beginning, this piece made no sense. I really wanted to focus on something that was a big deal to me. I wanted to focus on the United States, and society. This piece though was scattered and confusing. I had a lot of great information, but I didn't know how to put it together. After having my pears read my piece though, I was able to pull it together and make, what I believe is a compelling essay. My strengths in this essay were defiantly all of the facts that I pulled out. Also that I gave such a strong opinion, and that is wasn't something easy to write about. I don't believe there were any weaknesses in this piece.
Another piece in my portfolio called  The Curious Incident Of The Dog In The Night-Time. I had a ruff time trying to think of things to write about because I didn't complete the book. From what I did know though, I used to write another good essay. I wanted to try and show that nobody is perfect and that society should be able to except the imperfections of everybody. I wanted to show how society is a fault for so many things, and that there isn't a real understanding of Aspergers or other mental disabilities.
The last piece in my portfolio is called One flew over the Cuckoo's nest and it was a writing journal prompt. I didn't have any other great pieces from English, so I just went with this piece. I related a lot to McMurphy and I wanted to write about something that had to do with him. I wanted to take a passage from the book that showed how assertive McMurphy was. In my analysis I was wrong about the outcome, about Harding and McMurphy becoming friends, but I still really liked my view on this passage.
My writing goals at the beginning of the year were: to improve my vocabulary, to improve my detail, and to have a greater grasp on my punctuation. I don't believe have accomplished any of that. Except my vocabulary, I feel as though it has improved slightly. English isn't something I get excited about, and I believe because of that, I don't care much to put my full effort out. English isn't something that I am passionate about so I give up easily. I am working on everything still though because I don't want to fail English.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

One flew over the Cuckoo's nest

Page 21 writers journal
Miranda O'Shea

" this busy man Mr. Harding, is he the bull goose looney?"  He looks at Billy with one eye, and billy nods his head up and down real fast; Billy's tickled with all the attention he's getting.
" Then you tell Bull Goose Loony Harding that R.P. McMurphy is waiting to see him and that this hospital ain't big enough for the two of us. I'm accustomed to being top man. I been a bull gooses catskinner for every gyppo logging operation in the Northwest and a bull goose gambler all the way from Korea, was even a bull goose pea weeder on that pea farm at Pendleton-so I figure if I'm bound to be a loony, then I'm bound to be a stompdown dadgum good one. Tell this Harding that either meets me man to man or he's a yaller skunk and better be outta town by sunset."

This passage clearly shows a lot of things and leads me to believe that it contributes to the climax of the book. One thing this passage shows is that conflicts are rare in the ward because everyone is afraid of the repercussions. Another thing this passage shows is that McMurphy is costumed to attention and needs to be the big man around wherever he goes. I believe from the fight that McMurphy and Harding have shortly after this passage makes them become friends. This passage is important because it shows that the asylum is a community and has different ranks.

Horror on the Horizon

Miranda O'Shea
Writers Craft

Horror on the Horizon

We, the citizens of the United States, make this a great Country because we are the most humanitarian Country in the world: the U.S. contributed $30 billion to foreign aid , as well as lead the world in defense spending; roughly 40% of the world's defense budget is generated by the US.  We also lead in space exploration and creation of internet technologies and innovations to make our lives easier, better and more productive.  Of course, a nay sayer to our humanitarian efforts would maybe try to begin an argument against the US by discussing our high incarceration rates, but we have a high population of incarcerated people only because we believe in reform and humanity while other countries just execute their criminals.
The US is a valued leader in advancing technology by creating 3D printers which are leading to prosthetic organs. We are pushing science with stem cell research and natural porosity.  However, It is my opinion that while we are becoming super advanced, we are declining in family values and morals.
Now the U.S. doesn't have any worse morals than any other country, but as a social leader the dichotomy is hard to ignore:  we have over two million prostitutes. Women selling their bodies for money while our nation as a whole struggles with the concept of  the "perfect" body image, and we are facing the real threat to our families as there has been a decrease in value of the institution of marriage.
 Young children are getting into drugs, sex and violence. One of the reasons I believe there is such a decline in the morality of our people is because we make it seem that the norm of society is that if you are not skinny, and don't show skin or wear makeup than you are undesirable and automatically ugly. Apps like Hot or Not and Photoshop are making an impact on our younger generations by showing them again that if they are not sexy then they are unwanted. Magazines make it seem like girls have to be skinny and beautiful and therefore make girls feel terrible about themselves.  When celebrities like Justin Bieber and Usher create vague love songs to make the girls feel loved, the girls will buy the magazines where the love-song singer's face is on and stories appear and then they will read the articles about loosing weight or the latest clothing trend or how to have better sex, feeling inadequate, some girls fall to the vicious cycle of magazines and celebrities capitalizing on their emotions. To feel wanted women now do whatever they can to show sexuality in themselves. Girls want to be skinny, not healthy. Girls want to be dumb instead of intelligent. Girls want to be housewives or be in porn when they are older instead of wanting to create cures for diseases or become the first woman president. I believe there is something much worse coming on the horizon.  Some people are worried about the next big meme or the apocalypse; but I personally worry for violent acts. On public websites people make it seem like fighting is important and it shows the younger generations that violence solves the problems in your life. It is apparent in history that violence leads to much worse actions. I'm afraid that the younger generations are going to see violence as a problem solver and revert to it. When I say violence I don't just mean physical, I mean racial, sexual and emotional violence as well. I feel these events are going to lead to something big. The decline with morality could lead to our country gaining a higher incarceration rate, a higher prostitution rate, and a less importance on family values. Our country is still the greatest, I just worry that it is digging itself a deeper hole and it just needs something to fight for, not against. Love and strength need to be valued not sex and violence.

Curious incident

English Essay
Miranda O'Shea

The Curious Incident Of The Dog In The Night-Time

People should understand that just because someone is diagnosed with a disability that doesn't make them any less of a person. Nobody is perfect:  not you, not me, not BeyoncĂ©, nobody. Like in The Curious Incident Of The Dog In The Night Time, it was understandable that because of Christopher's Aspergers, he was socially awkward and didn't like contact with others.Some people were so inconsiderate and ignorant that they judged him. "Sometimes people are born with disabilities, but it's communities that handicap them" I believe this quote is true because societies impact on our youth tell us that we need to be absolutely perfect when we just can't be. People with Aspergers are misunderstood, and sadly, they are criticized for something that is not in their control.
In my personal life I have experienced amazing things from people with disabilities. My grandparents adopted eight children who all have some type of disability. My aunts and uncles are still family to me and I love them all. Because of their physical and mental disabilities, they were all judged throughout their lives and because of the inconsiderate people that they have had faced in life, some have not ended up where they should. For example, my uncle Michel was a burn victim and he has scars from his accident still all over his body. Because of the way people have misjudged him, he has lead a life of disappointment and crime.  Similar to the first chapter of the book, Christopher has contact issues; a symptom of his Aspergers,  he pushed the cop away when he was trying to help him. Since the officer didn't understand why Christopher was acting like this he took Christopher to jail. Christopher says " I didn't like him touching me like this. And this is when I hit him" (Pg. 8).While others of my family have become very successful, like my aunt Lisa. She has lupus and was abused as a child, but she has overcome so much in her life and now she works with teenage girls who have their own disabilities.
I understand why people do pass judgment on others. Social media has brain washed children into how the slightest imperfections can make someone an outcast. One of the most hypocritical things in society is society itself. We watch people who we envy on t.v who say it's rude to talk about others in a negative way, but then we see them talking about the next celebrity who has gone through a mental breakdown. Because of this, children are learning that it's okay to judge others not on their personalities, but their looks and disabilities. So going back to Christopher, he is angry because people don't understand that because of his disability he can't hide emotion so he can only show how he is feeling in the moment. Also though Christopher knows right from wrong, and knows that he has to take the high road because nobody else will. From the book; Christopher says "But I don't take any notice because I don't listen to what other people say and only sticks and stones can break my bones and I have my Swiss Army knife if they hit me and if I kill them it will be self-defense and I won't go to prison"(Pg. 44). Most people who have disabilities are angry because they feel victimized. From what I also know about people who have disabilities, is that they can power through and work with what's holding them back.
The ways we can help fix this issue in our society is getting rid of gossip, sexual innuendos and above all TWERKING. Not only does TWERKING make young individuals feel the need to pleasure society by showing off their body's, but it also creates this other sly stupid concept of physical appearance and personality also. I know it seems odd that I am discussing the issues of TWERKING while I'm working on an essay about autism , but it all works up to a superficial, undereducated, sexual, barbarian society that pretends to create what a perfect person is by the way their body moves, and how much makeup they put on. Because people are so superficial that communities, or in my case, society's handicap human beings with disabilities. It seems like it shouldn't be that difficult to decide what is rude and what not to say. Bluntly, we are bullies. We as a community need to learn that it is politically incorrect and a horrible thing to taunt the disable. No only is it wrong but it seems evil.

Writers craft #2

This week my writers craft went great. I pumped out statistics and facts, I had the essay organized, and I feel as though I made an impact on the people who were listening. I made my piece interesting and intriguing. I was very happy with my end result. I still really don't like English though. English is my least favorite class, which is ironic because it's teaching me things I already know. I feel angry that I am able to express myself but I don't take the chances to do so. I should be getting good grades but  I am not pushing myself enough.